How I came to realize that submission is a way of life
My journey in BDSM has evolved in a unique way, one that made me realize I don’t live in two worlds, or have separate lives, or contradicting sides to my personality. But that wasn’t always what I believed. In my beginnings, I would often hear people say “I’ve been kinky my whole life”. That was not the case with me. I haven’t even been kinky very long, let alone my whole existence. Not even in my twenties when one would think you are the most curious about your sexuality and what is out there to experience. I didn’t even know this “world” existed until 6–7 years ago. And I remember back then, I secretly viewed my fantasies and thoughts as something dark and wrong, or some persona I would become at certain times. It wasn’t until a few years after that I realized it is a big part of who I am at my core and what I am made of.
I am a submissive. The same way I am a professional, a mother, a sister, a daughter and a female friend. Submission is how I look at life when I open my eyes every morning and how I choose to provide to those around me every day. And above all, submission is what has allowed me to have a different look out towards life’s ups and downs, and how to understand and accept them.
This past summer I had a series of bad circumstances that surrounded me and made me feel I was losing much of what I had built without…
